Bread and Circuses

I just got some good news yesterday and some sort of sad news this morning. 

While driving back home from doing some errands, the song Bread and Circuses by The Camerawalls started playing in my head. The radio wasn't even turned on.

So when I got home, I played it on my ipod and it has been on repeat.

I've heard of this band for a few years now and was lucky enough to meet them early last year in person.

Thanks Clem Castro and the whole band for making good music that soothes the mind and the heart when things aren't going well.

We are cooks and crooks with empty plates to fill

Serving dishes for our peers in vaudeville

We dread for their reaction

They get no satisfaction

Their palates’ dulled and burned with misery

And as a child I seem to think of destiny

For reason I can’t explain

Is it any wonder why my life turn out the way it did?

We choose what we have

And sometimes lose more than our bread

You’ve given Life your trust

And it’s been thrown back at your face

To realize what’s right

For the story of your Life

I’m tired of being fed with bread and circuses

This world view seems incredibly conservative

With passion just like mine

Will you gravely read my stones

When I should die

And as a child I seem to think of destiny

For reason I can’t explain

Is it any wonder why my life turn out the way it did?

We choose what we have

And sometimes lose more than our bread

You’ve given Life your trust

And it’s been thrown back at your face

To realize what’s right

For the story of your Life…

For the story of your Life...

Bread and Circuses - The Camerawalls

Words and Music by Clementine 

Performed and Arranged by The Camerawalls

Produced by Jonathan Ong and Robert Javier 

Engineered and Recorded at Sonic State Audio by Robert Javier with assistance by Tony V. 

Mixed and Mastered at Sonic State Audio by Jonathan Ong 

Additional keyboards and string arrangements by Jonathan Ong

Cover Concept and Photography by Nina Sandejas and Karlo Rono 

Layout and Graphic Design by Angelo Maniquis 

Cover Star: Zoe Sandejas

Copyright 2010 Lilystars Records 

Published 2010 Lilystars Records

The Camerawalls are: 

Clementine - vocals/guitars 

Law Santiago - bass guitars 

Joseph Rudica - drums

10 Strange Phenomena Of The Mind

1. Deja vu

Deja vu is an experience of having seen or experienced a new situation previously. It feels like if the event has already happened before. The experience is usually accompanied by a strong sense of familiarity and a sense of paradox or bizarre. The “previous” experience is usually attributed to a dream, but sometimes there is a constant feeling that it really has happened in the past.

2. Deja Vecu

Deja vecu is what most people experience when they think they are having a deja vu. Deja vu is when one has a feeling that he has seen something before, whereas deja vecu is an experience of having seen an event before, but with great detail as to recognize the smells and sounds. This also is usually accompanied by a very strong sense of knowledge about what will happen next.

3. Deja senti 

Deja Senti is a phenomenon of having already felt something. The phrase “I have felt it before” perfectly captures deja senti. It is only a mental phenomenon and seldom remains in our memory later. Many epileptic patients often experience deja senti.

4. Deja Visite

Deja visite is a less common experience and includes an unexplained knowledge of a new place. For example, you may know the location around you (a new city or a landscape) although you have never been there before.

5. Jamais Vu

Jamais Vu describes a familiar situation that we do not recognize. It is often considered to be the opposite phenomenon of deja vu. The observer does not recognize the situation although it is known that he has experienced it before.

6. Presque Vu

Presque Vu is very similar to the feeling in the “tip of the tongue”. When someone is ready to say something but his brain gets stuck and a word does not come out.

7. L’esprit de l’escalier

L’esprit de l’escalier is when a smart thought comes to you when it is too late.

8. Capgras Delusion

Capgras Delusion is a phenomenon when a person believes that a close friend or a family member has been replaced with an identically looking one. This illusion is often met in people with schizophrenia.

9. Fregoli Delusion

Fregoli Delusion is a rare brain phenomenon which makes a person believe that different people are the same person in various disguises.

10. Prosopagnosia

Prosopagnosia is a phenomenon in which a person is unable to recognize faces of people or objects he knows. People who have this disorder are usually able to use the other senses to identify individuals, such as the person’s perfume, the sound of his voice or his hairstyle.

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A man's chest is a girl's comfort zone.

It's a warm feeling when I lean on his chest. It is not about lust or anything but it's a way to comfort myself. There's a sense of security when you just feel his warmth. It's like listening to his heartbeat and feeling his breath beneath my hair. Feeling his fingers through my hair. We talk about happy things, share petty jokes and sarcasms then we fall asleep. 

It's one of the best yet simple moments that you can cherish with the person you love so much. 

I Like Your Flaws

I like how you mispronounce words sometimes, how you fumble and stammer and stutter looking for the right ones to say and the right ways to say them. I appreciate that you find language challenging, because it is, because everything manmade is challenging. Including man, including you.

When you sleep on your side, I like to map the constellations between your beauty marks freckles pimples, the minuscule mountains that sprinkle your back. I like the tufts of hair you forgot to shave and the way you smell when you haven’t showered in a while; I like the sleep left in your eyes.

I like the way your skin dies in the middle of the night, how you die from embarrassment the next morning; how you writhe in the snake casing you’ve left behind. I like that you think pillow snowflakes carry more weight than pillow talk; that you think my opinion of you is so fickle that it could change overnight. (It’s not.)

I enjoy seeing you insecure, vulnerable. I like to watch red steam light up your cheeks, a spreading mist of shame when you think you’ve done something unacceptable like missing a step on the stairs or not having the perfect answer to something I’ve said. It’s like you honestly don’t know how wonderful you are, it’s like you have no idea.

The burns, the scars, the black and blues on your face body heart, I want to know their stories. I want to know what hurt you, who hurt you, how bad the damage is. I like your hard, ugly toenails and the layer of fat that lines your belly, the soft parts you try to hide. It’s okay to be soft, sometimes.

I appreciate your ability to get inappropriately angry as much as I appreciate your willingness to apologize afterward. I like how your passion manifests unpredictably and uncontrollably, how your feelings cannot be caged or concealed, how you’re incapable of apathy.

I like how you can’t dance, how you have pedestrian taste in music, how the worst song on every album is your favorite. I like how enthusiastic you are when you hear it, it’s like you don’t know how terrible it is, it’s like maybe how you’re able to love someone like me. (Perhaps that’s your biggest flaw, perhaps that’s the one I love most.)

Your flaws single you out, set you apart, make you different from the rest, and thank god. I don’t just put up with settle for accept your blemishes, I like them. I like them because they make you human, and humans are easier to love than photographs and illusions and ideals; humans fit more easily between arms and between legs; humans are welcome to their imperfections because if there’s one thing humans can do perfectly, it’s love. Humans can love, they can do it flawlessly.

Source: Thought Catalog

Written by: Stephanie Georgopulos 

Holding hands may seem like an innocent gesture, but they show more than a simple interlocking of fingers.

Your hands are one of the most essential parts of your body:

You build with them, feed with them, hold with them, touch with them; 

They are the tools of the human body.

To link yourself to another being, to momentarily entwine your life to another's, to promise, for a moment, that you need not face the world alone. 

More simple, more aesthetically naive than other forms of affection. 

Do you want to know what happiness is?

It's waking up in the middle of the night for no reason,

     shifting under the blankets and feeling that you're next to me.

I turn around and see you in your most peaceful and vulnerable state.

You breath as though the weight of the world lays on anyone's shoulder but your own.

I smile, kiss your face in the most gentle manner so as not to wake you.

I turn back around involuntarily, a grin forms on your own face.

I feel an arm wrap around my waist, and I know it doesn't get any better than this. 

If nothing else, I hope you know that I love you with every ounce of my being.

I hope you realize your importance not only to me but to everyone in your life.

I hope that you know that when you're feeling down, I only strive for your happiness.

I hope you remember that no matter what, I'm here for you and

I fully intend on staying in your life for a long long time if not forever.

I hope you recognize the fact that I appreciate and adore you without restraints,

and that this will never change.

I have never loved anyone like I love you. It's true. 

Have you ever wanted to hug someone so tightly to the point where you have no intentions of letting go?

You'd be perfectly content just sitting or even standing there with your arms wrapped around them tightly because they mean so much to you.

Feels like time stops and everything around you fades.

All because they make you happy and content. They make you happy you exist.

Yes, that's how it is. 

Every time I am with him. 

Every time I am with Tong.

Ways You Should Expect To Be Treated In A Relationship

Don’t expect to be treated like a princess or a queen. What does that even mean? Do you want someone to obsessively dote on you and serve you breakfast in bed, or do you just want to have, like, a good partner? Give as much as you take. Don’t expect someone to give you foot massages every day while you just sit back and get worshipped. Both parties need to feel wanted and cared for.

Expect to be told the truth. Why be with someone if you have to walk on eggshells with them? Be direct, be honest. If they’re being an asshole, tell them. If they’re being THE BEST BOYFRIEND EVER, tell them that too. (Just don’t tell Facebook.)

Call them out on their ridiculousness because it shows that you know them so well. Most times, people WANT to be called out on their BS. They’re just pushing, pushing, pushing, until you’re willing to push back. They like it when you do. It means they’re paying attention.

Expect for them to treat you with respect, to be patient with you, to understand that if you’re being short with them. It’s probably just because you’re having a bad day and has nothing to do with them. That’s the thing: They have to know that it’s not always about them. There are other things happening in your life that don’t revolve around the relationship and that’s okay. It’s not an insult.

Expect trust. Without trust, you have nothing. Your partner should trust you completely until you give them a reason otherwise. If they don’t trust you, if they’re already paranoid in the beginning and try to control you, the relationship is doomed. Because it’s not about you. IT’S NEVER ABOUT YOU. You could be the best significant other ever and it wouldn’t matter because you’re with someone who’s violently insecure and will always find something wrong with you.

Expect to be made to feel good about yourself, especially when you’re naked and vulnerable. Sex should be a “NO JUDGMENT” zone.

Expect differences of opinion, expect fights, expect it to not always feel right, expect to feel a little bit bored sometimes, expect to feel a little overwhelmed the other times, expect to question things, expect to flirt with other people because it reminds you that you’re still wanted by other people who are not your partner, expect to be with someone who loves you as is and doesn’t want to change you. THIS IS A BIG ONE. It seems like so many people get into relationships just to transform someone into another person. Why do we do this? Don’t date a fixer-upper. What’s the point?

Expect to be taught new things. Expect to have your mind blown. Expect to want to be a better person.

Expect your partner to be faithful, unless you’ve clearly discussed otherwise.

Expect to be emotionally supported. DON’T expect to be financially supported.

Expect passion. Expect love. Expect anger. Never expect indifference.

Expect them to hate you when its over. Feel relieved if it’s ever not the case. 

Source: http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/ways-you-should-expect-to-be-treated-in-a-relationship/

The whole point of being with someone is so you can talk to them.

Let go of everything.

And even when you're at your worst, they still like you, love you.

They still want to speak to you and care about you.